Recent Events (or complaining session)

It has been almost two weeks sense I wrote last. That is a long time for me to go.... But as I expected, as my life usually goes... Once something good happens (see previous post) then everything else seems to go wrong. In the past week or two:

• My car has developed both transmission and alignment problems. And I need new rear brakes.
  
• My licences plates are going to expire soon and they cost almost $200 to renue.
  
• My rent check bounced and I don't really know why.
  
• I am EXHAUSTED all the time.
• All I want to do is move to the beach... I constantly battle thoughts of the ocean.
• 2 of my guitar lesson kids are not continuing... that was going to pay for school...
  

Money. It all comes down to money.... I keep praying and trying to trust God through this but he doesn't seem to be listening or doing much about it. It is just really dishearting to take this step to try to follow God and then for everything to feel like it is crashing in around me. I want to trust but in times like this He does not seem to be fulfilling his end of the deal...